A myriad of confusion..

artwork by Marcello Castellani

artwork by Marcello Castellani

I’m veritably swimming in a state of internal paralysis. He, with his actions, with his  behaviour towards me, left me speechless.  I have no words to even mutter. I feel lifeless. A body without a soul. Is he in fact the the fuel to my life engine so called ‘soul’? How is it possible when I have known him for so little? Dubious, I say to myself “maybe I have done something wrong?”  On the other hand, this perpetual waiting is evidence to the naught of care he gives about me…  About my feelings.. About my very own being..

I’m being reviled by mind, resonance of its futility is devouring my soul.  Is waiting really futile? Will he ever be the same again? Will I ever be seen for the felicity aura I possess when I’m with him, Or will I be infinitely afflicted by him..

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s