It hurts to be lonely.
It hurts inside my head.
It hurts to be loveless.
It hurts not to belong.
It hurts to have a broken heart.
It hurts time is not fixing it.
It hurts not being home.
It hurts home is a person.
It hurts to be lost.
It hurts he can’t find me.
It hurts to be indifferent.
It hurts I’m not numb.
It hurts I bleed words.
It hurts my words are for no one.
It hurts to be weak.
It hurts to be faithless.
It hurts my light is gone.
It hurts seeing the stars,
knowing I was once one.
High, I hold you up in your own prohibitive space..
My coruscating star, my pendant light..
Within those eyes of lustre black, I found my solace..
Take me by the hand and let us go out of sight..
Me and you, we do not belong in a world where sin is feared..
Vanish my strings, allow me to free fall into you..
Tell me you know, that here, our fusion is not revered..
Take me away and lets perpetrate something we can’t undo..
My memory of you remains vivid..
Time is stitching my wounds loosely..
In my heart, your knife is still fitted..
On my pieces, you danced carelessly..
I dream of eradicating your apparition..
Of a spell to be reborn..
For disposal has become an ambition..
When sanity has been torn..
Artwork by Iñaki Otaola
Today was the day I almost held your hand and brought you back home.
Today, I wanted to break my bones and hand you my heart.
Today. I realized you’re the rush I need in my veins.
Today, I felt the hollow inside me screaming for you.
Today, I had excruciating pain in my heart at the sound of your voice.
Today, I had to live knowing the letters of your name will be forever lingering on my lips.
Today, I knew it wasn’t easy breathing without your head on my chest.
Today, I realized no one could possibly make me feel this alive.
Today, I got struck by the irreconcilability of logic and love.
Today, I was on the verge of free falling oceans in you.
Today, I heard you calling my name and my knees trembled.
Today, I was keen on spending the rest of my days wrapped in your arms.
Today, I wanted to strip down from all that’s holding me back and let you take me in.
Today, I loved you the most.
Today, was also the day, I said nothing.
On this very peculiar day, I learned we share the same despair..
Caused by the correlated factors, what do we have to spare?..
Impetuous, you left without looking back..
Subdued in the sombre nights, I cannot cease wondering..
What is it that I lack?..
Observing you fade, you suspend your steps..
Reaching for my hands with your back still turned..
My fingers quiver and my heart palpitates..
Is this suffering I sense or are you just blurred?..
Reluctant, I held your hands tight..
You whisked me off to you, gazed at me with your tear-glared eyes..
“Was it hard to put on a better fight?..”